remember the times when you think that however painful something is, one day -however long that one single day of peace is going to come - it's all going to be okay?

well, stop dreaming because i seriously think that that's NEVER EVER going to happen.

we may think that day by day the wrenching feeling in our chest is lessening, and that maybe if we just be patient enough it'll all go away. one day it does get easier, and easier still, the next day after that, but what we don't actually understand is that the pain isn't really going away, we're just accustomed to having it there already. this is not a case of "okay, you don't feel it. it's not there." we're people. we're all human. our basic instinct is to protect ourselves. we do things to make the conscious mind believe that we are okay. which really isn't good when one day something goes wrong and we, again, find ourselves flat on our butts saying, "i thought this was over?"

i've learned that happiness is suuuuuuch a fleeting feeling, but as fast as it comes and goes, i'm thankful for it because it's like when you can't swim, and you only get a few seconds to come up for air before being sumberged again. those few seconds are what happiness is for me. it's what helps you go on. the gasping for air, the grasping for painless uncertainty of what's going to happen next.

Pam the Sap

Right now, my world revolves around my laptop, the TV, fic, grey's anatomy, private practice, malls and oh, food :p

I write. I read. I read and then I write. I make m-vids. [you can watch them on my youtube.]

The bright and shiny side of me loves..

grey's anatomy.
private practice.
kate walsh = world's most funniest person. EVER. (hey i give credit where credit's due, aryt? :p)
my laptop. my cellphone. my ipod. books. movies. music. my mum's chocolate chip cookies. ice-cream. muffins. pizza. rainbows. rainy days. sunny days. slacking. sweets. THE CLASH... seriously.

in terms of GA writers, i loooove...

♥ Calla
♥ Sara
♥ Brandy
♥ kele_varekai
♥ literary_critic

Oh, if you want to get on my good side, here's my wishlist ;) wee.

A backsage pass to the Grey's Anatomy, or Private Practice set. :)
Books. A new phone. A bigger room. A new laptop. A leather jacket [ i want to be Mrs. McSteamy! :p]

My birthday is on: November 11 ;)


MUSIC? Music is love.

i listen to a wide range of genre's so anything from contemporary jazz to rock is good :D
just don't let me listen to metal or anything like that, okay? haha!

and yes, i purposely did not put band names. we, yes WE, have reasons you guys just won't understand. :p
right, sweetbabes? right, teppy? right, asia? hahaha!

RAMBLINGS

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LINKS

♥ my fster account
♥ my multiply
♥ my blog before
♥ my mum :)
♥ asia
♥ teppy
♥ france
♥ calla
♥ acie
♥ angel
♥ jennisen
♥ eriko
♥ mare
♥ cara
♥ sophie
♥ abby
♥ funniee
♥ rini
♥ fer
♥ chirra
♥ alyssa
♥ BJ
♥ ekhai
♥ anna may
♥ gela

Old Stories

Bubbly
the open laboratory
the computer i'm using is going berserk
Internet. FINALLY.
Didn't We Almost Have It All?
Chanchita
Time and Confusion
Better Off Dead
Save the Cheerleader, Save the World
Starpish :)

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CREDITS

Brushes: H-G
Designer: I