it's happening all over again
remember the times when you think that however painful something is, one day -however long that one single day of peace is going to come - it's all going to be okay?
well, stop dreaming because i seriously think that that's NEVER EVER going to happen.
we may think that day by day the wrenching feeling in our chest is lessening, and that maybe if we just be patient enough it'll all go away. one day it does get easier, and easier still, the next day after that, but what we don't actually understand is that the pain isn't really going away, we're just accustomed to having it there already. this is not a case of "okay, you don't feel it. it's not there." we're people. we're all human. our basic instinct is to protect ourselves. we do things to make the conscious mind believe that we are okay. which really isn't good when one day something goes wrong and we, again, find ourselves flat on our butts saying, "i thought this was over?"
i've learned that happiness is suuuuuuch a fleeting feeling, but as fast as it comes and goes, i'm thankful for it because it's like when you can't swim, and you only get a few seconds to come up for air before being sumberged again. those few seconds are what happiness is for me. it's what helps you go on. the gasping for air, the grasping for painless uncertainty of what's going to happen next.
addieisagod : 8:49 PM
Bubbly
first off, i just want to make it clear that i do not know why i'm actually blogging right now and that i will be rambling on about stuff throughout this post, because that's who i am. haha! :)
well, the past two days really haven't been that great. i thought i won't be affected by what's happening, but now i really beg to differ. people are making 'it' so hard to cope with. psh. kainis. the only person i can talk to naman about 'it' is like miles away kaya it got muuuuch harder pa, but oh well. as our dear chem lab prof says so eloquently, "shit happens."
college life has been, well.. fun actually. the subjects naman are not so hard... yet. haha! so i'm enjoying it as much as i can before it all blows out of proportion. the people - well, MOST of the people - i met are awesome. :) seriously speaking, they're all so uniqe and contribute a lot to the group that we have now. we're all friends in the classroom, which is such a great bonus 'cause that means we work well. (Nichie, lumipat ka na kasi. haha!) tapos super laughtrip talaga sa classes especially in Math. gaaah, Master Bert! ahahaha!
moving on. guess who got a copy of Deathly Hollows through the internet? ;] ahaha! gaaaah. asia sent it to me and i went wiiiild! i can't stop reading. kainis. haha! who wants SPOILERSSS?? guess who dies!! ahaha! okay, i'll stop now before some avid fan hits me with a mallet. :p
now, we have come to a point where i have nothing to talk about already. this event RARELY happens with me, because as much as marffy beats me in the talking department, i AM still quite adept in making daldal. hahaha!
'til next time!
Pam the Sap
Labels: buenaobra, college life, harry potter, master bert
addieisagod : 6:37 PM
the open laboratory
...totally rocks my socks, man! haha! free internet. punyemas. i want to upload na in multiply and to check my youtube account already, but the people here just won't let me. they made it restricted, which for me is kind of stupid when you can log on in friendster. hahaha! well, whatever, i'll get the laptop's adapter later tonight and i'm more or less not gonna get any sleep because that's how long i haven't been online.
in reference to MTGOF, calla's been an updating machine and i'm already misssing out on so much. punyemas. the other thing is that she makes her updates sooooo long, which i really like when i'm not 5 chapters behind. hahaha!
it's already 12:57 and i still have a class later. gaahd. i wanna go straight home and get some much needed rest already. i haven't really been sleeping well, and i'm not sure why. i sleep at the hospital when i visit lola, but duh, that's not enough. haha! college is kind of getting to me, but it's sure is FUN :D (oh, master bert! my life would be so dull without you. haha!)
well, that's my time. mama glo is kinda telling me to stop already. haha!
'till next time,
Pam the Sap
addieisagod : 9:51 PM